I’m raped, I’m hurt
Dreams never met
This rubber ball is all I get?

I’m mocked by day
I’m shushed by night
You see me, still
You ignore my plight
Hoping it will
Hoping it might
just fade away
Never reignite

I scream for attention
You don’t oblige
I’ve shown you signs
And yet, despite
You turn away
Like all is fine

Mother I love you
And father you,
But don’t you see
How I am bruised?

Please feel my pain
As you would my joy
Before you loose your little boy

I ask you only to bear me out
See How I feel
Before you shout
You say I’m crazy
I swear I’m not
You shut me up
Locked in my grot

But hear me mama
I beg I plead
I’m sad for a reason
Do you not see!
If I’m silenced now
I’ll forever be
A timid lad,
Lost prodigy

Sweet daddy please
You’re bold, much wiser
Hear my shouts
And do entice her
To do the same,
God please be nicer
I’m not insane
I’m just a fighter

This is my whimper
And at best you mock
Tell me to feel, how I rather not

You say my sadness, is without cause
But did you ask me, why I bawl
And in my glee
I often see
So heartlessly,
you ignoring me

I’ve made this drawing,
That’s very nice
But mommy’s busy
Son not tonight,

This was all when I was four
I searched for love
To find a closed door
You rejected my feelings
When I confide
You said all would be alright
But parents I was but a child
Do you think logic, could suffice
My feelings of fear!
My broken heart!
But you ignored me more
Now we drift apart!

All those times, and even now
You mocked and judged me
Without asking how
Or why or when
Did I feel so harmed?

And when you did
And when I told
You would deny me
Then you would scold
I remember what you used to say
When I sighed  “a lousy day!”
That school is fun,
i should be gay (happy)
how could u ignore
your childs dismay
It made me feel,
It made me think
That I was but a crazy prick
I hated school
And had no friends
I was ignored
Till I was ten
And all these years of shedding tears
I’m so alone, where my fears

A Childhood wept away, alone
Parents ignore
Their weeping whore
Unless they slap of call me names
And tell me of how I’m such a shame
They say I’m broken-a demon teen
but cant the broken be redeemed?
I ached for love
Was I that crazy?
Why was I deemed,
Mislead and hazy?

And you do feel guilt
I can always tell
You see me hurt, raped, bruised and bent
But my dreams of love
are never met
this rubber ball is all I get….





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